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it broke my heart to know that you're in pain. literally, the thought, alone, of us breaking up, it was unbearable, i never cried so many tears. i was too blind and stupid to see that i was hurting you. i really want to work this out between us and this is why i told him, i will never see him again, because hurting him means nothing to me, and you, you mean the world. i love you so much and so this is why i never want to hurt and betray you ever again. im actually really lucky...i'll remember that. i really hope one day you can find it in your heart to trust me again.